The Past Few Months...
Lots of topics to cover, from Family to Online Worlds, so I'll just get going.
Let's start with May. They found a fybrocystic lump in my left breast. Fun. NOT. Tests, tests, tests, more tests.
June 16th, my Uncle Bill died. The man had Parkinson's Disease. He fought it for nearly 20 years. When he died, I was angry at first. Angry at a governmental buracracy that held up research that could have improved his quality of life and given him a fighting chance to live longer. Then I came to terms with the fact that he's not suffering anymore because the Parkinson's had made his body a prison for him. I still can't pick up the teddy bear he gave me for my 6th birthday. The thing is 30 years old and has been restuffed and still, I can't pick that thing up, much less touch it, without crying. He and my Aunt Sissy were the only ones who understood and embraced my individuality. Much less to say, his death was a massive blow.
8 days later. The news hits that my friend David Sweeney lost his battle with AIDS.
It was a double whammy. I've never had 2 people I love die within such a short timeframe before. I'm still not quite sure what to do with all of it.
Much less to say, none of us can do anything about death. It is what it is and the sun comes up tomorrow for the rest of us.
Martini night is something I'm starting to be very dependant on. I guess it reminds me that I'm still alive and that I'm still kicking.
Online worlds:
I went into the There Forums (why I do it is beyond me, morbid curiosity I guess) and things are still just about the same there.
World of Warcrack... I'm getting really tired of running into High School Cliquishness everywhere I go. Bad enough that I left There because of it, my new guild is no exception. Apparently, I have no name or no face in a raid, I'm just "The Druid". It's bad enough I'm Sammy's Daughter or Marcel's Wife. I have no identity I guess because I'm just "The Druid". Add on top of that...Feral Druids are apparently (to small minds and microscopic penises) not viable DPS (damage per second). Give me a damn break. I'm not going to ride the short bus because people are short sighted. Plus, heaven forbid, I'm a girl tank. To Quote the 1980 film "9 to 5", "Sexist egotistical lying hypocritical bigots". I swear, if I'm told one more time that I'm not good enough to go to a raid because I'm supposedly "undergeared" and it's really because the son-of-a-bitch runnng the thing doesn't like me, I'm going to explode and take some of them with me.
Uru has some good things going on. As is the norm. I'm starting to think that Uru is the ever-present light at the end of the tunnel. Gametap gave the rights to Uru back to Cyan. However, this is where it gets dicey. The MORE project, as it is being called now, is going to rely almost solely on User Created Content. Ya know, when I think about some members of the community getting their paws on the approval process for that stuff, chills run down my spine. I've said many times that being from Uru is like getting caught at the world's coolest MENSA convention. BUT, and here it comes, usually people that smart don't have a lick of common sense between them and have a serious God Complex, they think they know everything, which unfortunately means they don't know a whole hell of a lot.
Good news...I'll be able to go for a walk in cavern. Bad news, inevitably the "we know better than you do squad" is going to rear it's ugly head. And back into the meat grinder that is all online worlds. Unfortunately, Uru is doomed to mediocrity because the visionary minds behind the world I so cherish are going to be taking a backseat. I just hope they monitor everything very very closely.
In total, I'm exceedingly disappointed in the human race. Mediocrity has made its' way into becoming the norm. When you strive for excellence, it is looked down upon and treated as 'extremist' or some such nonsense. When you are better at something than someone else, you become a threat and therefore must be squashed quickly by someone with a small mind. When you are smarter, stronger and more advanced, you immediately become shunned. What the hell is wrong with this planet? Human beings are just scared, ignorant animals. How small the human race has become.
I am grateful every day for evolution. Maybe the pathetic human race will grow out of it's stupor.
Let's start with May. They found a fybrocystic lump in my left breast. Fun. NOT. Tests, tests, tests, more tests.
June 16th, my Uncle Bill died. The man had Parkinson's Disease. He fought it for nearly 20 years. When he died, I was angry at first. Angry at a governmental buracracy that held up research that could have improved his quality of life and given him a fighting chance to live longer. Then I came to terms with the fact that he's not suffering anymore because the Parkinson's had made his body a prison for him. I still can't pick up the teddy bear he gave me for my 6th birthday. The thing is 30 years old and has been restuffed and still, I can't pick that thing up, much less touch it, without crying. He and my Aunt Sissy were the only ones who understood and embraced my individuality. Much less to say, his death was a massive blow.
8 days later. The news hits that my friend David Sweeney lost his battle with AIDS.
It was a double whammy. I've never had 2 people I love die within such a short timeframe before. I'm still not quite sure what to do with all of it.
Much less to say, none of us can do anything about death. It is what it is and the sun comes up tomorrow for the rest of us.
Martini night is something I'm starting to be very dependant on. I guess it reminds me that I'm still alive and that I'm still kicking.
Online worlds:
I went into the There Forums (why I do it is beyond me, morbid curiosity I guess) and things are still just about the same there.
World of Warcrack... I'm getting really tired of running into High School Cliquishness everywhere I go. Bad enough that I left There because of it, my new guild is no exception. Apparently, I have no name or no face in a raid, I'm just "The Druid". It's bad enough I'm Sammy's Daughter or Marcel's Wife. I have no identity I guess because I'm just "The Druid". Add on top of that...Feral Druids are apparently (to small minds and microscopic penises) not viable DPS (damage per second). Give me a damn break. I'm not going to ride the short bus because people are short sighted. Plus, heaven forbid, I'm a girl tank. To Quote the 1980 film "9 to 5", "Sexist egotistical lying hypocritical bigots". I swear, if I'm told one more time that I'm not good enough to go to a raid because I'm supposedly "undergeared" and it's really because the son-of-a-bitch runnng the thing doesn't like me, I'm going to explode and take some of them with me.
Uru has some good things going on. As is the norm. I'm starting to think that Uru is the ever-present light at the end of the tunnel. Gametap gave the rights to Uru back to Cyan. However, this is where it gets dicey. The MORE project, as it is being called now, is going to rely almost solely on User Created Content. Ya know, when I think about some members of the community getting their paws on the approval process for that stuff, chills run down my spine. I've said many times that being from Uru is like getting caught at the world's coolest MENSA convention. BUT, and here it comes, usually people that smart don't have a lick of common sense between them and have a serious God Complex, they think they know everything, which unfortunately means they don't know a whole hell of a lot.
Good news...I'll be able to go for a walk in cavern. Bad news, inevitably the "we know better than you do squad" is going to rear it's ugly head. And back into the meat grinder that is all online worlds. Unfortunately, Uru is doomed to mediocrity because the visionary minds behind the world I so cherish are going to be taking a backseat. I just hope they monitor everything very very closely.
In total, I'm exceedingly disappointed in the human race. Mediocrity has made its' way into becoming the norm. When you strive for excellence, it is looked down upon and treated as 'extremist' or some such nonsense. When you are better at something than someone else, you become a threat and therefore must be squashed quickly by someone with a small mind. When you are smarter, stronger and more advanced, you immediately become shunned. What the hell is wrong with this planet? Human beings are just scared, ignorant animals. How small the human race has become.
I am grateful every day for evolution. Maybe the pathetic human race will grow out of it's stupor.
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