The Wait is over.
Yep, the wait is over. It seems I do not have what it takes to go the distance. I got the news. I came in 3rd. Now 3rd place out of 12 people isn't bad. The disappointing part of it all is my prize is a useless to me PSP. So, Ryan, bud, you got yourself a new toy courtesy of the There Fashion Challenge.
The one thing that this contest really did for me was crystalize what was important to me. After seeing I got third place, and understanding that I will never be accepted as an artist by my virtual peers just made me realize that it's time I traded my virtual life in for a real one.
Real life...OMG, I haven't done that in close to 3 years, wonder what it's like? LOL.
Before I moved to Montreal, my real life wasn't bad. Actually, it wasn't bad at all. I never waited in line at nightclubs, I could get a table at Spago without a reservation, all my friends were rich, beautiful and a lot of fun. They were very superficial, but hey, that's Vegas for you.
Now I have a chance to get back into the swing of a real life. Job opportunities are popping up like wildfire and the virtual world that I joined to escape the solitude of living in a foreign country and having no real friends has lost it's luster. If I want drama or some other form of real life BS, I'd rather face it head on, in the REAL world, rather than with people who have no other type of life than to live through an avatar made out of pixels in a place that doesn't exist. I'd much rather spend my time now dealing with REAL people that have REAL lives that don't base their world and spend their money in a place that doesn't really exist and is made out of pixels.
The real and virtual worlds have a lot of things in common that I despise. Small minded people, sub-human scum that would rather poach ideas from others rather than use their imaginations and create it themselves, gossip mongers, cookie cutter status quo following sheep, and most importantly, malicious people who would rather belittle the accomplishments of people greater than them instead of embracing and learning from people who have more knowledge and experience than they do. Instead of embracing the knowledge, we get people who are jealous, ignorant and completely unaware of the damage they do to people by making their rude comments.
But, come December, that's it for the virtual world for me. Real life is calling and THAT is the ultimate adventure. It's not jumping off a mountain to see how much you can make a cartoon version of yourself into a chinese pretzel. Nothing so mundane as that. It is the adventure of meeting other real people, getting on a plane and actually going somewhere new, smelling fresh air and feeling the sun on your skin. All I could get from a virtual world was 30 pounds overweight, a pale, pasty complexion, abject humiliation, annoyed and aggrivated beyond belief, getting lied to right, left and center and a husband that suffers from neglect. I do realize that these are things that happen in the real world as well, but you know what? I'd much rather deal with it face to face with another human being rather than a pack of cowards hiding behind their computer screens.
I admit it, MEA CULPA, I was a coward hiding behind my computer screen. I used that virtual world to hide from the real world. Well, I don't need to hide anymore. My buddy Barry was right. I was Lazlo Hollyfeld in my pajamas in the basement of life. I'm not doing that anymore. I'm sick of it. I'm tired of giving money hand over fist to a virtual world that does not appreciate anything that anyone does for it. The staff have proven through their actions that they do whatever it takes to keep the mass of sheep quiet and if that means being rude, lying to them and blowing smoke up their butts while they calmly and happily take the members' money, then that's exactly what they'll do. Right now, There is a pretty pathetic place and outside of my friends and family I have there, the rest is just a waste of time.
So I've been busy in the Real World. Outside of writing my entry today, I have spent a total of about 3 hours in There because I had to attend the TFC After-Party. Oh yeah, what a party... *roll eyes*...not a drop of real champagne, people over on one side of the room being obnoxious, the rest just standing there and looking at each other. Oh yeah, real fun... especially when I show up and the room goes silent. Yeah, I really wanted to be there...I wanted to be there so much that I logged out early and went and cleaned the knobs and the underneath of the burners on my stove. The party started at 6pm. I was cleaning my kitchen and I thought, hmm...what is more appealing, cleaning the kitchen or There... hmm... Clean Kitchen or go in There, hmm... well guess what, the kitchen won. I logged in at 6:30 just to be polite, smile, wave my little hat and leave. It lasted all of 15 minutes. I went back to cleaning my kitchen.
I came back into the office to check mail and I grab my designer buddy and ask her how the party was going...she told me that people were asking for me. Yeah, right...I came in, waved my hat, talked to a few people and I was out of There by 8pm. It took all of 20 minutes.
My husband and I had a wonderful dinner and we're about to play some mountaineering Monopoly, have some fruit, sit and talk and most importantly, I'll be living and taking part in the REAL WORLD.
Bottom line...the wait is over. No time like the present to get a REAL life.
The one thing that this contest really did for me was crystalize what was important to me. After seeing I got third place, and understanding that I will never be accepted as an artist by my virtual peers just made me realize that it's time I traded my virtual life in for a real one.
Real life...OMG, I haven't done that in close to 3 years, wonder what it's like? LOL.
Before I moved to Montreal, my real life wasn't bad. Actually, it wasn't bad at all. I never waited in line at nightclubs, I could get a table at Spago without a reservation, all my friends were rich, beautiful and a lot of fun. They were very superficial, but hey, that's Vegas for you.
Now I have a chance to get back into the swing of a real life. Job opportunities are popping up like wildfire and the virtual world that I joined to escape the solitude of living in a foreign country and having no real friends has lost it's luster. If I want drama or some other form of real life BS, I'd rather face it head on, in the REAL world, rather than with people who have no other type of life than to live through an avatar made out of pixels in a place that doesn't exist. I'd much rather spend my time now dealing with REAL people that have REAL lives that don't base their world and spend their money in a place that doesn't really exist and is made out of pixels.
The real and virtual worlds have a lot of things in common that I despise. Small minded people, sub-human scum that would rather poach ideas from others rather than use their imaginations and create it themselves, gossip mongers, cookie cutter status quo following sheep, and most importantly, malicious people who would rather belittle the accomplishments of people greater than them instead of embracing and learning from people who have more knowledge and experience than they do. Instead of embracing the knowledge, we get people who are jealous, ignorant and completely unaware of the damage they do to people by making their rude comments.
But, come December, that's it for the virtual world for me. Real life is calling and THAT is the ultimate adventure. It's not jumping off a mountain to see how much you can make a cartoon version of yourself into a chinese pretzel. Nothing so mundane as that. It is the adventure of meeting other real people, getting on a plane and actually going somewhere new, smelling fresh air and feeling the sun on your skin. All I could get from a virtual world was 30 pounds overweight, a pale, pasty complexion, abject humiliation, annoyed and aggrivated beyond belief, getting lied to right, left and center and a husband that suffers from neglect. I do realize that these are things that happen in the real world as well, but you know what? I'd much rather deal with it face to face with another human being rather than a pack of cowards hiding behind their computer screens.
I admit it, MEA CULPA, I was a coward hiding behind my computer screen. I used that virtual world to hide from the real world. Well, I don't need to hide anymore. My buddy Barry was right. I was Lazlo Hollyfeld in my pajamas in the basement of life. I'm not doing that anymore. I'm sick of it. I'm tired of giving money hand over fist to a virtual world that does not appreciate anything that anyone does for it. The staff have proven through their actions that they do whatever it takes to keep the mass of sheep quiet and if that means being rude, lying to them and blowing smoke up their butts while they calmly and happily take the members' money, then that's exactly what they'll do. Right now, There is a pretty pathetic place and outside of my friends and family I have there, the rest is just a waste of time.
So I've been busy in the Real World. Outside of writing my entry today, I have spent a total of about 3 hours in There because I had to attend the TFC After-Party. Oh yeah, what a party... *roll eyes*...not a drop of real champagne, people over on one side of the room being obnoxious, the rest just standing there and looking at each other. Oh yeah, real fun... especially when I show up and the room goes silent. Yeah, I really wanted to be there...I wanted to be there so much that I logged out early and went and cleaned the knobs and the underneath of the burners on my stove. The party started at 6pm. I was cleaning my kitchen and I thought, hmm...what is more appealing, cleaning the kitchen or There... hmm... Clean Kitchen or go in There, hmm... well guess what, the kitchen won. I logged in at 6:30 just to be polite, smile, wave my little hat and leave. It lasted all of 15 minutes. I went back to cleaning my kitchen.
I came back into the office to check mail and I grab my designer buddy and ask her how the party was going...she told me that people were asking for me. Yeah, right...I came in, waved my hat, talked to a few people and I was out of There by 8pm. It took all of 20 minutes.
My husband and I had a wonderful dinner and we're about to play some mountaineering Monopoly, have some fruit, sit and talk and most importantly, I'll be living and taking part in the REAL WORLD.
Bottom line...the wait is over. No time like the present to get a REAL life.
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