Excursions into the psyche of my insanity

Ok, so I'm an Uruite....as in someone who was born virtually in Uru: Ages Beyond Myst. Paraphrased one more time...It was my first online world. In There, as an Uruite, as all of we Uruites are, have to deal with constant discrimination, fear, random acts of stupidity, and so forth because we had to migrate from Uru to There when our homeworld was shut down. Now, let me explain the difference between an Uruite and a Therian. First, there is no comparison of the two...yes, they're both made of pixels, but the based in carbon, real life, flesh and bones people behind the avatars are two totally different breeds. Over time in my posts, you can see that I do grouse quite a bit about Therians, in general because they "Just don't get it" for the most part, "it" being everything from having manners, taste in clothes, how to run their world, etc, they just don't get it. It would be like trying to explain to a 5 year old why they shouldn't stick their fin...

This afternoon, I was stumbling around the internet because I'm truly sick and tired of what is going on in the There World. I happened upon a news story on Yahoo, and below, in the corner, was a link to Andy Rooney's clips from 60 minutes. In this wonderful "6-Pack of Common Sense", he took a look at everything from the President's staff to how truly ugly power lines are. He has such a comical and dry wit that you have to laugh over the fact that things are just so plainly obvious, but none of us ever bother to think about it. Growing up, I would get the rare treat of having my father take me to school. My father is not a tall man, he's only about 5'8, but he says he's shrinking now...I don't know about that, but my father will always be a giant to me. The one thing that will keep him a tall man in my mind were the happiest days of my childhood; those rare trips to school when we would get into his truck and he would turn on the radio and we...

Last night, I was talking to a very close friend of mine. I asked him point blank why it was that every time a big event or something huge comes up in There, me and my designs and all the rest of what I do in There are always passed over by the membership and the Staff... He put it in 3 words. "People fear you." Now that really bothered me...Why do people fear me? I'm usually very kind and good natured and I always have a smile for everyone I come across. I empower the people around me, I always encourage and applaud the people around me. When I don't know something, I'm always the first person to raise their hand and say, "I don't know". However, when I told my husband, he wasn't surprised in the least, he agreed wholeheartedly with my friend and said, "Of course they do." I still sat back in shock...Why? Why would people fear me? When he saw the puzzled look on my face, he looked at me and said, "How many people do you persona...

You'd think by now that I'd know better than to go into the There forums...but no, old habits die hard. I was perusing the forums and came upon something that has irked the hell out of me from day 1 in the game...Elitism coming from people who have no business acting like they are elite. Now let's go over the basic RL looks of these folks...most are over weight...not all, but most. As I've gone over in previous posts, they're more the Wal-Mart set. Nothing wrong with that of course, but really, how elitist can you be when your world is based in pixels and/or you don't live a real world "elite" lifestyle? I see these people, some of which have no business investing the kind of money they do into There, and in most times don't have an, excuse the expression, "pot to piss in", yet, they act like they are the ones who make the virtual world turn. Others think that just because they know Gmax and can build enormous structures and have been in ...

It's been about a month since I've last posted. I guess you can say that I have been busy. My husband (the angel that he is) finished moving all of the boxes that I couldn't carry (and in most of them I had no idea what the heck some of the contents were, I'm just glad they're out of the way), and now my office is a dream! My parents kindly donated a bed to our office/guestroom and now it is really fantastic. The rest of the house is fantastic! Just one more trip to Goodwill and everything will be squared away! YAY! My virtual mom came and stayed with me for a week...we had a grand time. I took her to Zumanity and we saw "Monsieur Phallus" and Izzy...one phrase makes my Virtual Mom crack up...SCOTCH BAGGIES. Ok if you don't get it, go see Zumanity and cheer your head off. All around the time that I was getting things fixed up here at the house and my virtual mom came to visit...what do you think happened? Drama ensued. But this time it landed...

Well, what can I say about this weekend but WOW !! It has truly been the Cirque du Soleil weekend for me and my husband. I just love the REAL WORLD!!!! You can not get this type of experience sitting behind your computer screen, I can promise you that! Remember when I said my real life was pretty freaking spectacular??...well this is one of those weekends that makes me getting back into my real life so wonderful. This weekend we got comp tickets for not just one Cirque show but TWO!!! Delirium and Zumanity. Not only did we get to see two fantastic shows, but we got to see them for free...I can't think of how it could have been any better and both times our seats were fabulous. Now, the first show I ever saw by Cirque du Soleil was "Nouvelle Experience" when they had it at the Mirage. I never got the fat lady with her weird spikey hair and the costumes. I was a little taken aback by it. Then I saw "Mystere" over at Treasure Island, I never understood why there wa...

Well, finally...We went to the furniture store and picked out a new sofa. Soft leather, rivets and beautiful rich wood, that is what my new sofa is all about. Just the idea of my husband sitting on a rich leather sofa watching football is enough to bring me joy and bring a little tear to my eye. The house is starting to come together. The breakfast corner is done, complete with baskets filled with breakfast goodies, toaster in the corner, and juice glasses in the cabinet above. I finished cleaning up my mixer. Now I am a wonderful (according to my husband) baker. I love to bake. Pies, cakes, cookies, I definitely have my grandmother's touch when it comes to baking. I never can keep the cookie jar filled very long with my husband running around. Plus, at the end of the month, I've got company coming, that means that I'm going to have to triple my recipies to make enough for everyone and have it last more than a day. But after all of my work, my mixer tends to get a little bi...

There have been many times in my life where I've been so frustrated that all I can do is sigh and say, "Some people just don't get it" I'm on a big trip in the There Forums right now about how guys are getting screwed because the women have all the great templates and the guys are left looking like perpetual feces. (I don't bother logging into world anymore, I just check the forums and see what they are whining about. I do it because of my term on the MAB, 6 months of checking forums every day became a habit.) I'm a girl for Chrissakes!!! I'm championing a cause for guys who won't ever get what I'm trying to do for them! Some men don't care how they look. Others do. It is now truly apparent to me that Therians have no taste and absolutely no style. They wouldn't even begin to know what to do if they were ever driven up Rodeo Drive. Hell, they probably can't even pronounce it... for all the Therians out there it's pronounced RO -...

Yep, the wait is over. It seems I do not have what it takes to go the distance. I got the news. I came in 3rd. Now 3rd place out of 12 people isn't bad. The disappointing part of it all is my prize is a useless to me PSP. So, Ryan, bud, you got yourself a new toy courtesy of the There Fashion Challenge. The one thing that this contest really did for me was crystalize what was important to me. After seeing I got third place, and understanding that I will never be accepted as an artist by my virtual peers just made me realize that it's time I traded my virtual life in for a real one. Real life...OMG, I haven't done that in close to 3 years, wonder what it's like? LOL. Before I moved to Montreal, my real life wasn't bad. Actually, it wasn't bad at all. I never waited in line at nightclubs, I could get a table at Spago without a reservation, all my friends were rich, beautiful and a lot of fun. They were very superficial, but hey, that's Vegas for you...

I'm trying my best to figure out why I am so edgy lately. I've finally gotten part of the kitchen done, so it's not that. My husband is happy with me, so it's not that. Deep down I know what it is...it's waiting on the results of the voting from the There Fashion Challenge Finale. I'm not really thinking about it, I'm concentrating on housework, but it's sitting like dead weight in the back of my mind. My subconscious is definitely not letting me off the hook until the announcement of the results. On June 1st, there was a big shake up in There. One of my friends, a fellow designer, gave me a buzz on Yahoo Instant Messenger with a link to a blog called the " There Fashion Challenge ". As I watched the video entitled, " Do you have what it takes ?"My heart flew directly into my throat and I instantly started to have anxiety about sending in a portfolio. Now I had been having enough trouble mustering the guts to send out my real graphic ...

/begin rant Ok, so my friends in There know that I own the first surf shop ever created in our virtual world. I sell surfboards, bathing suits, patio sets...you know, the regular beach themed gear... In There, on Wednesday's and Friday's we have a data merge of all of the new products that member developers have created and submitted to There. It's lovingly called "The Push". Now the push for those of us who own stores and put vehicles in them, like my Surfboard hoverboards, bacios and hoverboats, we know that when the push comes through, all of our vehicles that we put out to display are going to drop through the collision mesh and fall to the ground. No biggie, you just have to remember to go in every Wednesday and Friday and reset them. All you have to do is change the permissions for 5 minutes, reset your stuff and change the permissions back so that people can't shoplift the vehicles you put out for display while you're not there. Well, one of my bigg...

Today, I've decided to start a blog because all of the things that have happened to me over the summer are now over. I now get the chance to devote my time to finding a job, spending time with my husband and FINALLY finishing my apartment. Why is it so important that I finish my apartment? 1. Because it's giving me the heebie-geebies. 2. I want to walk around in a pristine home. 3. I've got company coming at the end of September. 4. My husband deserves to walk in to a beautiful home after he puts in a hard day of work. Why is it not done yet? 1. There. The virtual world www.there.com . I am an active part of that online community. I teach classes in Photoshop, I am the Assistant Dean at the University of There, I fly with the Hairier Legion Flight Team (yes I know that Harrier is misspelled, copyright issues in the virtual world) which is the equivalent of the Blue Angels, we're a precision flight team, and I was on the Fall 2005 Members Advisory Board (MAB) that ate si...